Want to tell you a secret?
Fandom: Death Note
Pairing: Mello / Near
Warnings: Yaio Mello x Near. Contains spoilers manga Chapter 99 onwards.
title history: Do you want to tell you a secret?
Rating: PG-13
Summary: You know, Mello? Although much time has passed, I still find myself on nights like this, thinking of you. Wondering if your lips really tasted like chocolate.
N / A: Beteado by Wilkilén, at the time.
You know something, Mello?
Today I found myself thinking again you. I will not deny that this upsets me. I do not like thinking again about events that have already occurred and ended.
But again and again, my mind goes back to ask the same question. Why would someone who was raised to serve justice, for justice, as you finished?
Your temperament, your character, your adorable dementia. Your thirst for revenge.
know that I was not so important for you to have been the only reason.
After what would be the last time we met, I heard you were still chasing Kira. For a brief moment, I wondered if I would have gone to get one. When I heard that Matt was helping you, I close your eyes for a moment to remember who he was.
The redheaded boy. Was the most intelligent after us.
Why did you go to look for Mello? Why did you get Matt box rusted memories and dusty where were your experiences in Wammy's House?
I worried. Have changed to a group of gangsters by a former best friend gifted definitely put me in a distinct disadvantage.
Why would he help you? Loyalty? I'd considered stupid. Does it hurt? You had killed before they allow it. Love? I doubt it. You do not control your emotions, but certainly he did.
Perhaps
was as boring as us. Perhaps he remembered the smile of L and Kira hated as much as you and me.
Things went as planned. Except for the small detail of his death. I know you must have felt real pain about it. You sank into the void Mello, Matt, but you dragged the innocent. After all, misery loves company.
Why I took my?
That you would have liked. And I would have gone willingly.
What did you feel knowing you were going to die without having lived?
Did you cry, Mello? Do you cry? Or you were so high that not even notice the moment what your heart stopped?
What were your last thoughts? Who were they? Anger at not being able to avenge L, sadness for the death of Matt. "Self-pity, perhaps?
there any little thought for me, Mello? "Although it is one?
best thing could have happened to it have died. You no longer anything left. Not even your beauty.
Do you know anything more, Mello? You're the only person in this world who could ever call a friend. It saddens me to think I know you more than you could you ever know me. I know your fears, your weaknesses, your strengths. Would you know your mine?
I doubt it.
is a real shame. How are you spare us here. If I put the top right corner of the small rectangular, both fit perfectly.
I needed someone to offer me protection, and somebody to whom you refer.
I need your arms around me, and you need me writhing under you.
Did your lips taste like chocolate? Would your body as warm as your smile when you were a kid "The smile that I unknowingly stole from you? As the photo that still keep next to the rosary you wore it everywhere. When you become Catholic? When you come to the conclusion that both have survived was a miracle? Or maybe to remind yourself that there was still hope of peace in death you did not have in life.
I'll never have the answer for many questions. And what I like, so I could stop thinking about the subject useless.
Want to tell you one last secret Mello?
Despite the years, despite the injuries, even miss you. I still need you Mello. I still mourn every time I think of you, dammit.
N / A: The story takes four years, so there is some inconsistency: Apparently not in the canon would have known Matt and Near L, Mello would be the only (In Another Note). And, at the time the meaning of such questions was to give an air of inquiry, and now it sounds a little melodramatic.
